Sorry, guys...

[themostepotente]

I haven't spoken about my mother's death since last April.

Her estate was finalised this week. My sister sent me a check today. I feel very undeserving of this money even though I have a house I need to maintain. Credit cards I can finally pay off and be rid of. Fuck, even my motorcycle loan.

I should feel elated by all of this, really. Triumphant even.

I don't. It just depresses the shit out of me.

This past year has made me a very different person.

And now there's no going back.

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I am going to try and get some recs out tonight even though my head is pounding.

--P

Comments

[frantic-mice.livejournal.com]

My dear. Of course nothing I say can make any of this better. It doesn't get better with words.

I think she would be happy about how you live your life, that she eliminated some of your problems and that you give other people a lot of happiness and joy.

Thinking of you my dear Raphael. ♥

*hugs*

[themostepotente.livejournal.com]

Aww, sweetie, that makes me feel so good. I try to do what I can to bring joy to peoples' lives. No matter the size of the gesture, you know? And speaking of which, you are just as lovely and kindhearted. Your really know how to brighten a gal's day :-)