Sorry, guys...

[themostepotente]

I haven't spoken about my mother's death since last April.

Her estate was finalised this week. My sister sent me a check today. I feel very undeserving of this money even though I have a house I need to maintain. Credit cards I can finally pay off and be rid of. Fuck, even my motorcycle loan.

I should feel elated by all of this, really. Triumphant even.

I don't. It just depresses the shit out of me.

This past year has made me a very different person.

And now there's no going back.

***

I am going to try and get some recs out tonight even though my head is pounding.

--P

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[femmequixotic]

*hugs*

I understand. I felt the same way when my dad's estate was settled. And I totally understand feeling like it all makes you a different person. It truly does.

Thinking about you tonight, hon. Very much.

[themostepotente.livejournal.com]

I am very late in responding to this. I do apologise.

It's amazing how just seven words can set your mind at ease. Thanks for thinking of me, Femme. *hugs*