Sorry, guys...

[themostepotente]

I haven't spoken about my mother's death since last April.

Her estate was finalised this week. My sister sent me a check today. I feel very undeserving of this money even though I have a house I need to maintain. Credit cards I can finally pay off and be rid of. Fuck, even my motorcycle loan.

I should feel elated by all of this, really. Triumphant even.

I don't. It just depresses the shit out of me.

This past year has made me a very different person.

And now there's no going back.

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I am going to try and get some recs out tonight even though my head is pounding.

--P

Comments

[pauraque]

When I got the money from my mom's insurance and savings I also felt very undeserving and guilty. I think that's why I never did anything with it, when I "should have" invested it or something.

[themostepotente.livejournal.com]

It's never too late to invest it. Mine's in a savings account for now. The interest rates suck all around.

And oh my goodness, Eo, how are you? Your fandom presence has been sorely missed. *hugs*