Needing a bit of advice

[themostepotente]

It's rare that I friendslock.

Rarer still that I ask for advice.

But -- I've a bit of a quandry.

I signed up for merry_smutmas and was very pleased with my assignment. Two years running too -- yay, gmth!

A post on the Smutmas comm advertised a smutty het fic exchange. Het, I know -- I hope I didn't lose your attention.

So, I signed up. I've really been in a mood to try something different, so I said, hey wtf -- why not?

I received my assignment last night. It's not the assignment I have an issue with, but the person I'm supposed to write the fic for.

Both of us have defriended the other as of late. I don't hate nor dislike this person, rather I'm indifferent now. Still, I wonder if I can write this person a fic considering recent events. (There is a bit more I'm not mentioning.)

So -- am I being a big fucking baby? Yes folks, in my journal, I 'encourage' honesty.

Or -- am I justified in my thinking for feeling oh, 'uncomfortable' with my assignment?

Advice is very much appreciated.

Thanks,

--Penny

Comments

[starrysummer.livejournal.com]

I can understand the way you feel about it. My reaction is pretty similar to what other people have said. I don't think you're overreacting if you have issues with the person. (it seems from what you've said that while you don't hate the person, he/she brings up some unpleasant issues/memories/whatever) I think you should contact the challenge moderator privately and explain the situation, saying that you'd rather not write for your requester, though you're still interested in participating in the fest no matter what. It's possible she's gotten emails from a couple of people who were unhappy with their requests and might want to swap. If she can't switch you around, then just write the fic you want to write for the request, ignoring who it's for. After all, she's not going to be the only person reading this and once you've started, you can try to sepereate the fic from the person who requested it. (after all, if you're the author, it's your fic, not hers)